The following day Brandon called me and asked if I wanted to go to DI (for those not familiar with that acronym it stands for Deseret Industries and is a store similar to Goodwill) with him and a couple friends and of course I said yes. He had invited Keith to come as well so I met up with Keith and then we met up with Brandon. As we drove to DI Brandon kept tickling me by poking me in the side. I was pretty happy that he was being so flirtatious in front of his friends and I took that as a pretty good sign. Soon we were walking around the various aisles looking at random things and our hands brushed and to my surprise Brandon grabbed my hand. We continued walking around the store hand in hand but I had to wonder if he would let go once we reached my brother and the group of friends who were busy looking at the clothing racks. But to my surprise and joy, he didn't let go as we approached them a few minutes later.
Of course I was happy that we were holding hands but I also had some questions running through my mind. Admittedly I am one of those people who over analyzes everything so I kept wondering things like "What does hand holding mean to Brandon? Does that mean we're official? What are we going to tell our friends if they ask?" I tried to bring up some of those questions but I could tell Brandon wasn't quite ready to answer them yet but I also warned him that all of our friends were going to have questions as well.
Sure enough, as we met up with a bunch of different groups of friends throughout the day and even bumped into some of my previous volunteer group leaders we got a lot of awkward questions like "So, is this your boyfriend/girlfriend?" or "How long has this been going on?" I kept waiting for Brandon to give them an explanation because I was curious myself and really wanted answers too. But to my disappointment Brandon changed the subject or gave short, nondescript answers each time someone asked. Even though I really wanted to know if holding my hand all day in front of everyone meant anything I decided to just have fun and enjoy the day and try not to worry about it. And we did have lots of fun! We spent time just at the park just talking and getting to know each other, rode a tandem bike together, wandered around campus and went to I-Night. Every moment that passed gave me more confidence in my feelings for Brandon. Once again I found myself feeling surprised at how easy, comfortable and natural everything felt between us. I had never felt that same feeling with anyone else and knowing that made me nervous and excited all at the same time. That day came to a close way too quickly and before I knew it Brandon was walking me back to my parents van where we would have to say goodbye (as I had to leave to go back home very early the next morning). When we reached the van Brandon told me he wanted to talk to me a little before I left. It was getting cold and so we both got inside the van and I started it up to keep us warm as we talked. The details of the majority of that conversation have been forgotten but I do know that I finally asked Brandon if he knew he wanted to be official or not. He said that he was okay with being official but he also seemed a little nervous about it and I could tell that it was kind of scary for him to make that decision. I asked him if he was sure but assured me that he was. We got out of the van and hugged and said our goodbyes. As I watched him wave in the rear view mirror I knew I missed him already.
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